Archive for the ‘Gender and sexuality’ Category

Bad history II

July 22, 2025

Following up on my 7/20 posting “Bad history”, the terrible tale of necrotizing fasciitis (caused by MRSA) in 2003 — now with details that have come out through discussions on Facebook (FB still works, but you have to delete most of the stuff that comes your way to get to actual postings by real friends). Material from these discussions, edited and amplified.

Maggie Tallerman (in the UK) opened the exchanges:

— MT > AZ: You didn’t say if the MRSA was a hospital-acquired bug, which is known for being a thing in this country (hopefully uncommon). I hope it wasn’t. Appalling.

— AZ > MT: It definitely was not. Probably acquired through garden soil — unexpected perils of being a gardener! — though that’s not sure. Not from a hospital or through sexual contact, in any case, since both were absent from my life between June 2003, when my man Jacques died, and November, when the NF suddenly appeared. It is, however, likely that my immune responses were muted by extravagant grief (and, before that, the toll of dementia caregiving).

In a sense I survived through the diagnostic skills of my family doctor, who reckoned, in a phone call, that there were three things that might be the cause of the symptoms that had suddenly appeared, that one was very rare but extremely dangerous, so just in case I had to meet him at Stanford Hospital immediately (and was delivered there by my department’s administrator). Within an hour I was in surgery, and so my life was saved.

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Triple art

July 18, 2025

From my 7/14 posting on this blog: my life has recently been extraordinarily difficult and extravagantly painful; and so it continues, with the added complications of medical appointments, on 7/14 and 7/16; a new helper / caregiver, starting on 7/15 and 7/17; and a series of computer disasters, one a day for three days (7/14 – 7/16) running.

But then in clearing out the innumerable closets, shelves, drawers, and storage spaces in this house, preparatory to moving, many months from now, to a much smaller apartment in an assisted living facility, I have unearthed two decorative artworks — of cross-stitching and Mexican folk pottery — recognizing and celebrating threesomes, more specifically the affectional and sexual triple of me, my wife Ann Daingerfield Zwicky, and my husband-equivalent / Ann’s lover Jacques Henry Transue, in the years 1975 through 1985 (when Ann died, and Jacques and I became just an everyday gay male couple). Both were presents: the cross-stitching of three monograms from the creator, our daughter, Elizabeth Daingerfield Zwicky; and the three pottery doves from my former UIUC student and our old friend David Stein, who found them in a crafts market in Tijuana during a day trip from San Diego that David took me on, all those years ago.

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St. Sebastian without the arrows

July 12, 2025

A surprise on my Pinterest  this morning: a sinesagittal St. Sebastian from Texan artist RF. Alvarez (who offers tender, communal gay machismo, which is Tex-Mex to boot):


(#1) Alvarez, St. Sebastian (2022), aka “Meet me under the pomegranate tree, St. Sebastian” (a self-portrait of the strikingly handsome RFA in the St. Sebastian pose, with a vulnerable but unharmed body, and steadily meeting the viewers’ gaze, conveying neither agony nor ecstasy); the figure here is hooking up with St. Sebastian, and he’s also mirroring St. Sebastian (with his hands behind his back, perhaps tied to a tree, only a bit of drapery barely covering his genitals)

But why a pomegranate tree (not part of Christian legend)? And the deep orange suffusing the figure’s entire body and filling all the background behind him and the tree — another pomegranate allusion (though pomegranate fruits and juice are garnet-red, not citrus-orange)? An allusion to the Greek myth of Persephone and her pomegranate seeds?

I’ve now looked at quite a lot of RFA’s paintings, and this one stands out from all the others, including his other self-portraits (for instance, Self-Portrait with Grandfather’s Hat (2023)). So it cries out for some explication.

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RESIST

July 7, 2025

The message from my fellow QUESTer — another Queer University Employee At Stanford — Ryan Tamares, on a postcard mailed to me on 6/19, in the middle of Pride Month:

Happy Pride !
Pride always ! !
— RESIST —

The holiday moment has passed, but now we’re in a world where we have to actively resist, on a daily basis, against the brownshirts and blackshirts serving our overlords. And join with the drag queens and thrown-away club kids who, in one of our foundation tales, fought back against the cops who came to ruin their lives, and ours.

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Stoop labor

July 6, 2025

Earlier on this blog I’ve had occasion to celebrate the humane gravity of MSNBC commentator Jonathan Capehart, who happens to be both Black and gay. Now in JC talking about his 2025 book Yet Here I Am: Lessons From a Black Man’s Search for Home, an observation about the stoop labor historically done by Black folk in the American deep south (harvesting cotton, tobacco, and sugarcane):

“My cousin Rita and I are the first generation in our family to not have to pick cotton, and for people of a certain age, they will understand what that means,” Capehart said. “… It wasn’t until I was writing this book that I understood, when our parents were our age, they were working. They were working in the fields, picking cotton, picking tobacco. We did not have to do that.

So JC and his cousin Rita represent a shift in the fortunes of Black folk. Here’s JC informing us, explaining things, interviewing political and cultural figures, a figure of importance on national television — and a moving reporter on his own life history in that book. In what I see as the release of great abilities, drive, and insights that follow on opening up opportunity to everyone: excellent qualities that are in fact distributed widely across the population will flourish in new places (and since those who succeed first will have had to run through a lot of tough hoops, they will be seen to be especially talented).

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The out@in shirt

July 5, 2025

From yesterday (for me, a long 4th of July work day, 6 am to 6 pm) on my Facebook page (somewhat edited):

In going through stuff in my closets, I came across a t-shirt (one that fits me, so I put it on) that has a logo on the front: a (portrait) rectangle with horizontal stripes of the rainbow flag in it and the word IN in white letters superimposed on the rainbow stripes. The back of the shirt identifies it as from out@in, which is presumably some sort of gay organization, but I don’t recognize the name or remember how I came to have the shirt.

My attempts to search for the organization and the logo came to nought, as did my attempts to scan the t-shirt logo into my scanning printer, so I appealed to readers to supply me with information about the organization and with a copy of the logo. (Given the precarity of my current life, I did not take well to people who, instead of giving me the information I sought, explained to me how I should have done the searches.)

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The city treasurer

June 29, 2025

One little note from today’s San Francisco Pride Parade, where all manner of things passed by, including a great many politicians — most of them just showing their support for some slice of their voting public, though (since this is San Francisco and the occasion is one of queer celebration) some of them will be actual LGBT+-folk.

Which brings me to the long-time city treasurer of San Francisco, José Cisneros. Now, the city treasurer serves as the city’s banker and chief investment officer, and manages all tax and revenue collection for San Francisco. It’s hard to imagine a less frivolous, more earnest or more weightily responsible position. But, since this is San Francisco, it should elicit no surprise that the city treasurer is not only Latino (as you will gather from his name; but then the senior senator from California, Alex Padilla, is Latino) but also gay.

But he holds a weightily responsible, banker’s position. And has the requisite education and business background to qualify for it. And, in fact he absolutely looks the part of the city treasurer of a major US city; he could have been supplied from central casting:


His official portrait, which cries out: rock-solid dependable, and approachable too; of course we will trust him to handle our civic monies

This pleases me. We are everywhere, in all walks of life, presenting ourselves in any number of ways. And actively working for the good of the community, as JC does.

My days of marching in pride parades are long past; now I watch them on tv. But it’s definitely a day for standing up and standing out, so I wore my black GAY AS FUCK tank top. Happy Pride.

 

The chronicler of lives

June 28, 2025

From  6/19 on Facebook, an exchange between Aaron Broadwell and me (somewhat expanded in this version):

— AB > AZ: Arnold, I wonder if you knew Miriam Petruck, who died about two months ago. [with the link below:]

Linguist List 36.1873, 6/17/25, “In Memoriam Miriam R.L. Petruck (1952-2025)”: by Hans C. Boas, dated 6/14/25

[beginning:] Dr. Petruck was born April 11, 1952. She received her B.A. in Linguistics from Stony Brook University in New York in 1972 and her M.A. in Linguistics from the University of California, Berkeley, in 1976. In 1986, she received her Ph.D. in Linguistics from the University of California, Berkeley, with Prof. Charles J. Fillmore as the head of her dissertation committee. Her dissertation on Hebrew body-part metaphors combined two of her lifelong interests, the scientific study of the Hebrew language and Cognitive Linguistics. Her dissertation was the first one to apply Frame Semantics to linguistic analysis. She became involved in the major research projects which Prof. Fillmore and his colleague Prof. Paul Kay undertook in the 1990s, developing the twin theories of Frame Semantics and Construction Grammar. She participated in the discussions leading to the creation of the FrameNet project (the practical implementation of Frame Semantics) in 1997, helping to define frames and to annotate some of the data in the FrameNet database.

For the rest of her life, she continued to publish and speak about both theories (particularly about Frame Semantics and its application to NLP), at conferences and seminars around the world.

— AZ > AB: I did indeed. Through my regular association with the Berkeley Linguistics Society in the old days. The death notice by Hans Boas on Linguist List focused on her position as a kind of international ambassador for FrameNet.

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The mortal agony of Saint Sebastian

June 27, 2025

Coming up on my Pinterest mail several times recently, this powerful sculpture (with no identification beyond its mislabeling as a piece of classical sculpture), clearly of Saint Sebastian (in some public place; I’ve deleted a trash can in the background), tied to a figurative tree, mortally wounded by arrows, his body contorted in unbearable pain, writhing in the deepest agony, with no trace of homoerotic ecstasy:


(#1) Not a piece of classical sculpture, since clearly not from ancient Greek or Roman times; not a sculpture on a classical theme, since Christian martyrdom is not a theme of ancient statuary; not even a sculpture in a classical style, given its sinewy modernist roughness; classical in spirit only in its capturing the virtually nude male body in bronze

Google Images told me instantly that this remarkable figure is Saint Sebastian, a large bronze sculpture (from 2008) by Ricardo Motilla (born 1951 in San Luís Potosí, Mexico), located at the entrance to the Museo de Arte e Historia de Guanajuato (the Art and History Museum of Guanajuato), in the city of León in the central Mexican state of Guanajuato.

Now, some brief remarks about the city of León (a place I suspect few of my readers have ever heard of, so you’re probably wondering how it could have a serious art and history museum). Then I’ll counterpose the terrible agony of Motilla’s StS to the general run of depictions of the saint, which are heavily weighted towards the ecstatic-homoerotic; in particular, the Motilla is at the opposite end of the StS brutality scale from the many depictions by Pierre et Gilles, all of them agony-free.

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I am the rose for Sharon

June 22, 2025

Yesterday, a brief and multiply allusive birthday poem for my friend Sharon (“A rose for Sharon”, on this blog here), along with the birthday gift to her of a big spathiphyllum plant, which should soon send up some of its sexy flowers. Various associations floated in my mind along with the plants and their symbolic eroticism.

Molly Bloom and her soliloquy of yes, but directed to a woman. And, overwhelmingly, the singer of the Song of Solomon 2:1, a woman who declares that she is (figuratively) the rose of Sharon and the lily of the valleys and goes on into (heterosexual) erotic verse from the woman’s point of view (which can of course be repurposed as directed to a woman), ending with a surprising celebration of spring (in places where winter is the rainy season), suggesting a springtime of her body as well as the season:

My beloved spake, and said unto me,
Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.
For lo, the winter is past,
The rain is over and gone.

And from that I’m taken to shapenote music and to factual questions about the plant the rose of Sharon and about Sharon the place from which this plant (and the Sharons of this world) got its name.

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